take some time

so lost, so confuse i just dont know who to turn to.
who has the answers to all my problems?
iv watched my dreams die.
iv watched you destroy, rebuild and crush my life.
this life isnt for me.

"help me" she wispered in his ear
"i cant!" he exclaimed looking for her light.
when a dream is crush and broken and your life is put in the siguation where it can be roughly explained as 'rock bottom' you relise alot of things about your self and the other earthlings around you.
rock bottom isnt as bad as it sounds, its far far worst.
you cant really understand every levle of it because for that you would of had to face ever tragety known to man kind and anyothers we may not relise just yet that people are slowly dieing from each second. but what you shall realise about rock bottom is that there is no escape, the depression, self hate, world hate, stress, anxity,rage, or any other form of emotion that you fell while you are at rock bottom will never ever never leave you fully.
you can never change your life around that much. those suicidle attempts still fresh in your mind now your married with two kids, the past always aprears.
as much as you attempt to change yourself
you can change your name change your face, remove yourself from the socal siguation you were in.
do what you want.
the emotions that filled your broken soul once will never leave your side and its cloud will float behind you all your life and then rain on your life when ever it wants to.
this is forever.