When I die, fuck it I wanna go to hell Cause I'm a piece of shit, it ain't hard to fuckin' tell It don't make sense, goin' to heaven wit the goodie-goodies Dressed in white, I like black Tims and black hoodies God will probably have me on some real strict shit No sleepin' all day, no gettin my dick licked Hangin' with the goodie-goodies loungin' in paradise Fuck that shit, I wanna tote guns and shoot dice All my life I been considered as the worst Lyin' to my mother, even stealin' out her purse Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion I know my mother wished she got a fuckin' abortion She don't even love me like she did when I was younger Suckin' on her chest just to stop my fuckin' hunger I wonder if I died, would tears come to her eyes? Forgive me for my disrespect, forgive me for my lies) I swear to God I just want to slit my wrists and end this bullshit Throw the Magnum to my head, threaten to pull shit And squeeze, until the bed's, completely red I'm glad I'm dead, a worthless fuckin' buddah head The stress is buildin' up, I can't, I can't believe suicide's on my fuckin' mind I want to leave, I swear to God I feel like death is fuckin' callin' me Naw you wouldn't understand when I cross over, there ain't no comin' back Should I die on the train track, like Remo in Beatstreet People at the funeral frontin' like they miss me My baby momma kissed me but she glad I'm gone I reach my peak, I can't speak, call my nigga Chic, tell him that my will is weak. I'm sick of niggas lyin', I'm sick of bitches hawkin', matter of fact, I'm sick of talkin'.

poka dots

my eyes want to fall out of my head.
once again i sit here on a saturday night.
no one to hold
no one to talk to
im alone in this world and that scares the shit out of me
and i know one is going to save me.
its stange how i always picture what could be.
everything about him interests me, so unusual he is.
but it would seem he dosnt want the same as me so im chucked back into the deep end gasping for air.
i wish the world would just let me drownd.
instead you pull me up with your fishing rod of hope.
pull me up
put me in your safe boat where everything seems ok
size me up, gut me out.
then throw me back.
there are plenty more fish in the sea but when do i get to do the catching?

"you look terid darling?" said boot his hand agenst my blushed cheek
"im not teird, i have been crying."
"crying? why?" the expression on his face turned to worry as his hand slung to his side.
"becuase yelling dosn't fix everything."
his face turned to stone and he slid out of the room without a word.

Clementine

Take me out
Take me home
Take me
anywhere I walked a hundred miles
so I could
give a dog a
bone

It's alright
I don't
mind
I'm just running
into
something bigger than the
something
that I left
behind


Oh my
darling
Oh my
darling
Oh my
darling
Clementine


Turn the
water
Turn the
water
Turn the
water
into holy water


You
are restless
Very Young
Got a
message from your mother
said to
tell you
she'll be coming round
the mountain when she comes

Oh
my darling
Oh my
darling
Oh my
darling
Clementine


Turn the water
Turn the water
Turn the water
into holy water



Oh
my darling
Oh
my darling
Oh
my darling
Oh
my darling
Clementine


Turn
the water
into a little bit more
time.

Take me out
Take me
home
Take me anywhere
I walked a
hundred miles
so I could hear
them play your song on the radio.

I walked a
hundred miles
so I could hear
them play your song on the radio.

ant hill

its upsetting but today i found that this is the way i have to live.
under someone
always someone with more power
always someone smarter and better then you
we are all tiny ants in this big bad world.
when will you get squashed?
so many rules we must live by, being threatened and blackmailed if we dont obay.
not much has changed since when hitler rules.
just there are more hitler like people in our moderen world that we hadly notice them anymore
it is fate that until we discover a way we can all live as one in peace that we shall die in the power of another.
as much as you try and reble, as much as you try and be yourself and inndependent.
your not
someone always looks down on you.
we are all scum in their eyes and there is nothing we can do about it.
these tears have rolled down my cheeks caused by another too many times.
this heartless world will be the death of me as friday the 13th sinks in.
squash!

stupid.

its strange.
given the tinyest bit of hope we live on how people can expect so much out of life.
when we put something to mind and are given incouragement or infuenced in some way that this may actually be possibly we normaly take the challenge on no matter how stupid or unlikely it is.
as we get older our minds mature sure but we still do things that other people say are more likely to happen then when people are negitive about the out come.
we all want so much.
money can buy happiness and for the person who said it could not your quite a silly man for money is this world.
money rules us all. if you have millions of dollars or nothing it still have a greater power over all of us.
from our first pocket money we become a slave to it, and will do alot of stupid degradeing things to get it

hope and money
the two things we live by
the two things that contoll us.
shame i have neither.

blah blah blah blah blah
toddaayyy was just fantastic i took photos of my cat and bought pandora for myself becuase im too ugly and emo for a boyfriend.
had lots of fights with mum and went swimming in yucking poo infront of pretty boy
iv pretty much lost the plot.
i would upload a shit load of photos i just edited BUTTT photo bucket is being uber homo so i guess we are all just guna have to wait to see my shit house photoghraphy
nighthththt
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